A philosophical essay · PDF + EPUB
What are we really looking for?
You can change your life and still feel: “this isn’t it.” It is hard to move forward when you cannot say what is missing.
The Sense of Illusion helps distinguish a specific gap from an expectation nothing seems to satisfy. A short essay on freedom, consciousness, and the search for yourself.
Szymon PodolskiPDF + EPUB
How “this still isn’t it” develops
One wish. Two different goals.
“I want to be free.”
One possible story — not a definition of this wish.
A specific goal
more time for my own life
There is a specific change to work toward.
An added expectation
“real freedom”
An imagined goal appears that the specific change may no longer satisfy.
When something still feels missing…
Yes, but that is not it.
The search resumes, but what would count as enough is no longer clear.
The problem begins when more time still is not enough because “it is not real freedom yet.” Then it is no longer clear what concrete change would be enough.
What else is “freedom” supposed to mean here?There is a defined problem to work on again. If no gap can be named, “that isn’t it” alone does not explain what needs to change. This does not remove real difficulties — it helps distinguish them from an added expectation.
The problem
It is hard to change something when you cannot say what needs to change.
Sometimes you need time, a skill, or information. Sometimes even a real change gets dismissed with one sentence:
Yes, but that is not it.
The distinction matters. A specific gap gives you something to work on. An undefined “something more” leaves you unsure what would even count as progress. This essay examines that distinction.
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What the book gives you
The difference between a gap and the feeling that something is missing.
What needs to change
A specific need — time, knowledge, an opportunity — rather than a general belief that something is wrong with you.
Why nothing seems enough
How answers can keep being rejected without a clear account of what they lack. And why simply continuing the search does not settle the problem.
What you seek in yourself
How an image of your “true self” can become a separate goal. The same mechanism appears in questions about consciousness and awakening.
A philosophical essay · PDF + EPUB
The Sense of Illusion
The full argument in a short essay: from the feeling that something is missing to questions about consciousness, the “true self,” and enlightenment.
I don’t propose any theory. I examine how something becomes an object of our search — and how to recognise what we actually expect an answer to provide.
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